A520.1.4.RB_Manglona, Matthew-Napu_ Self-Awareness Blog
My level of self-awareness has slightly changed since I started
my MSLD courses. I will start with emotional intelligence; which is the ability
to manage oneself and to manage relationships with others. (Whetten, D. A.,
& Cameron, K. S., 2011) I was given a brief glimpse of self-awareness in my
previous course and its subcomponents were discussed when the assignment was given.
“Leaders who have the ability to perceive their emotions and understand their
impacts on their actions and on those of others should have a greater
probability of providing effective leadership” (Goldring, E., Cravens, X.,
Porter, A., Murphy, J., & Elliott, S. 2015). When I first entered the
leadership role in the Army as a 2nd Lieutenant I did not know how to
engage my soldiers as I was a hard charging leader not being aware of the
mental and physical capacity of my soldiers, too include myself. The MLSD
program has provided me that “taking a step back” approach and realizing the emotional
needs of my soldiers and myself. I was able to look from the outside in and
notice my patterns, attitudes, and training habits and tweak them into providing
and syncing them for a better atmosphere for my soldiers.
My Personal Values didn’t quite change as I was raised from
what I would call a good family household. Respect, loyalty, honor, and
humility were the core of me growing up. My personal values at times allowed me
to know what was right in attempting to influence my soldiers where my decisions
followed the “the hard right versus the easy wrong” mentality in my decision
making process. My cognitive style was able to change as well. My ability to
assess situations at a critical thinking standpoint has increased. My ability
to provide recommendations, continuing to learn, and have the ability to
maintain communication has provided me continuous growing potential in the eyes
of my superiors and separation of intellect from my peers.
My attitude towards change since taking this MSLD program
has allowed for me to create and maintain an open mind. I am also able to adapt
to change as well which I believe is a great asset to my abilities in
leadership. In my line of work, the Army consistently changes, from leadership
roles, policies, rules and regulations. A lot of people surrounding me are
negative and cause friction when it comes to change. By having “the ability to
adapt and utilize knowledge as a source of competitive advantage” (DiGiovanni,
M. 2013) is something at a young age I was able to be introduced too. As a
leader in the military you usually are the first to know about a certain change
within the organization and are expected to implement the change whether
subordinates like it or not. My job is to influence them and have them commit
to that change and enforce it ( i.e uniform change, leadership, and policy
changes).
The final core aspect of Self-Awareness is Core of Self
Evaluation. This concept in regards to change in self-awareness is something
that I believe is still ongoing. In the aspect of positive self-regard in
relation to self-esteem, generalized self-efficacy, neuroticism (emotional stability),
and locus of control (Whetten, D. A., & Cameron, K. S., 2011). I still am
trying to fix myself on this aspect. I tend to bottle things up although I can
adapt to negative situations. I would like to be able to just accept things for
the way they are because at times my emotions will get the better of me at the
end of the day.
DiGiovanni, M. (2013). Leadership forum to focus on adapting
to change. Credit Union Times. Breaking News,
Goldring, E., Cravens, X., Porter, A., Murphy, J., &
Elliott, S. (2015). The convergent and divergent validity of the vanderbilt
assessment of leadership in education (VAL-ED): Instructional leadership and
emotional intelligence. Journal of Educational Administration, 53(2),
177-196. doi:10.1108/JEA-06-2013-0067
Whetten, D. A., & Cameron, K. S.
(2005). Developing self-awareness. In Developing management skills (8th ed.).
Upper Saddle River, NJ: Pearson/Prentice Hall
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